NS Update - another bear!

I went to my doctor Monday since it's been awhile weighing myself on his scale.

217!  Woot!  Went home, immediately weighed myself and it had me at 220.8 or something.  So my home scale is way off.

I ordered my bear when I hit the 220.8 mark a few days before.  Was hoping it would arrive on its own, but nope.  It's coming with my next meal box the 2nd week of February.  :-)

I'm feeling a lot better.  I have more energy.   And it's hard for me to imagine carrying 30 extra pounds around all day long. 

I don't 'feel' smaller though.  Even though I know my gut is smaller because I can see my toes now.  Probably because I didn't see myself as fatter when I got up to the 240 - 250 mark.  I knew I was fat at 180 - 190.  But didn't realize how 50+ more pounds would limit my mobility and my health.

I've gotten antsy at work.  Leg or foot is always wiggling.  And the end of the day is like a kid in school staring at the clock ready to jump up and run out the door.

3 days off next week to be with my brother during his surgery.  Will still try to continue my walks when he's resting.

Well, That Was a Mistake

I've been extra hyper lately.  Not sure if it's the 9 dogs at my house, or waiting for my W2 so I can file and then refinance my home, or the weather, or all of the above.

So I got bored and looked up the medical definition for obese.  (Don't do it.)

And then I did the math.  I was happy to be under BMI of 40.  But then kept digging.  (Don't do it.)

A normal female my height would have to weigh 140 at the most.  I weighed about 130 or so as a teen.....and I still got called fat!!  And neither of those numbers is on my goal weight.

I do feel great right now.  But my first goal is to get under 200.  Then get to 185 which is what I weighed when I first started working at my current job.  After that it will be a discussion with my GP and my endo doc to see if we all feel I should lose more.  But 140 is nowhere on my radar.  I just keep thinking about all the loose skin that I'll have if I lost that much.
:-/

I miss veggies...

Due to poor planning on my part - I was unable to replenish my veggies this week.  So I haven't had any separate from what's in my meals for a day or 2.

And I miss my veggies.  I've also been wanting fruit lately.  Probably because I ran out of apples late last week.

I'm down to 221.2 which doesn't mean I get a bear yet.  Numi doesn't round down.  So I'll weigh myself on Friday and see if I'm below 221 yet.  :-)

I'm pretty sure I've dropped a shirt size and a Cassie skirt size.  Cassie is a pencil skirt made by Lularoe.  I plan on keeping all my work clothes because they're all Lularoe and stretchy.  And I have a belt I can always use if I get too small that the skirts start to fall off.  But that's a long way off.

It's been a little while since I've had a bout of fatigue.  Ears are still ringing though.

Saturday I took Cody with me on my walk, but Sunday I went on my own.  Sometimes it's nice to just walk and not have to stop to let a dog sniff every 5 feet.

I don't like the Milo flavor enhancers very much.  I prefer Stur or Sweet Drops.  Milo just tastes artificial to me.  Not sure if they don't use as much Stevia as the other 2 or what.

In a nutshell - things are progressing along at a good pace with my life change.

I should be wearing what?!

I've been getting a lot of ads about bras.  Don't know why.  It's not like I've searched for them recently.

But I decided to measure myself since I couldn't remember the last time I did that.  And I thought that the cup size didn't change.  Figured I've been a C my whole adult life.

So I measure under the boobies - 39 1/2.  About what I expected.

I measure around the boobs - 47.  No way.  So I do both measurements again.  Same thing.

Then I go find the booby chart.

And now I'm reviewing on Google and see some women measure above their boobies around by their armpits.  So I might have to check all this again!

Based on the chart though I'm a 4D/G.

So I've been way WAY off for at least 2 decades.

I told my wonderful neighbor/friend this story and she's laughing - naturally.  Then she says, "I could have told you that.  Mine are *not telling the public* and I know yours are bigger than mine."  She's the same one that had to tell me I was having hot flashes when I thought it was my AC not working right.

I'm still having a hard time absorbing this because the bra I'm wearing right now has the girls contained rather comfortably.  It's a ThirdLove.  And they don't make 4D bras.  Bastards.  :-)

This weekend I'll try on some 4D/G bras to see how they feel.  Probably won't buy anything expensive till my weight has leveled off.

I'm wearing my old jeans!

I saved most of my size 18 jeans.  This past weekend I got brave and tried on a pair.  They were a little tight around the waist, but I got them buttoned without having to fight very much.

And today I'm wearing  a different pair.  :-)

It's so cold outside and the jeans help keep me warm a smidge.  I was wearing pajama jeans that my BFF gave me.  And they are very comfy.  I can wear long johns under them which is lovely during winter.  But it's also nice to be able to fit into my real jeans.  <3

More people are commenting that they can tell I've lost weight. 

I love the mashed cauliflower dishes from Green Giant.  And I will be going this weekend to hunt down the cauliflower buffalo sauce one.  I like this stuff better than V8!  Most of my NutriSystem dinners I can mix right in with the mashed cauliflower and it tastes great.

Because I'm not ready to open my new box yet, I ate lunch for breakfast, I'll have dinner for lunch, and then breakfast for dinner. 

That's about all the flexibility that's allowed - being able to switch meals around.  There are no cheat days which makes sense to me.  Why spend one day screwing up what you've tried all week to maintain?

Finally broke the plateau! UPDATED

As of Friday I weigh 223 ish.  Hurray!!  It goes up .4 or so pounds, but I finally broke the 225 plateau.  I was at 225 for at least a month.

I'm feeling better.  Taking longer walks on the weekends.  And I like that I don't get myself so full that I feel sick or hate myself for eating so much.

One of my best friends, Nikki, told me about cauliflower with buffalo sauce.  I want to try that so bad!  My Publix didn't have it, but I bought mashed cauliflower with bacon and cheddar cheese and mashed cauliflower/broccoli.  The first one was so yummy!  Tonight I'll try the 2nd one.  Eventually, I'll go to Winn Dixie to see if they have the buffalo one, and Wal Mart if WD doesn't.

And, no, I don't eat the whole tray at one sitting.  That's 4.5 servings!  The first tray lasted dinner Friday night, lunch and dinner Saturday, and lunch Sunday.  Each serving counts as one veggie serving.

My next box o'food should arrive sometime this week.  :-)

UPDATE:  As of 1/25 there were 156 views on this one post.  I'm not sure if people were hoping to find a secret to breaking the plateau and I didn't provide that.

There isn't one.  At least for me there wasn't.

I kept eating at or below 1200 calories.  But I did get pissed and walk more.  If you get discouraged, talk to someone.  Preferably someone that is supportive.  :-)

Weird dream with Ma and Pepsi

The dream started with me drinking a Pepsi at lunch.  I was talking to my sis and said something like, "I need this," or something like that.

Then it switched to dinner and Ma had made all kinds of meat.  Beef, chicken, ham......I took some of each plus some yummy veggies.  Then poured an insanely huge cup of more Pepsi.

Ma was never really an amazing cook.  Some of the things she made were delicious - lasagna, her sub sandwiches, lumpia, jumbalaya - but her other dishes were...normal...I guess would be the correct word.

Sis looks at me and I say something stupid like, "Well, I already screwed up, so why stop there?"

As I'm walking by one of our executive's office this morning I see a box that looks like a single layer cake box.  I sneak in, he watches me, I see it's a keyboard box and laugh.  I tell him I thought it was cake.

"How long have you been on your diet?"

I tell him I've been stuck at 225 for awhile and I'm kinda frustrated.

He then says that the box does look almost like a King Cake box and it is that time for those.  Then I tell him about my dream.  That got him really laughing.
:-)

It's a Good Day!

Fighting my fatigue - stupid thyroid.  But I'll be going for a walk shortly.

I surprised Dad at his gig Friday night.  It was fun.  He had some regular fans there.  And one couple even remembered me.  And the bartender even remembered what my new dinner order is!

Then drove back to his place Saturday and spent the rest of the New Year weekend with him and David.

It was nice just to hang out.  We watched rugby and soccer.  The scrum was a curious thing for both of us to watch.

Saturday we did a little shopping at the Exchange.

We did the Sunday puzzle.  It was a rainy day.  That's one of my favorite parts of visiting my parent's house.  We'd pass it around the 3 of us.  David didn't play that I saw.  Probably because he'd solve most of it.  :-p
But when I visit on Sundays Dad let's me have a go at the puzzle.  And it usually is infuriatingly fun.  This Sunday we solved it though!  And it was still infuriatingly fun.

I was happy coming back into work yesterday.  I needed this weekend visit.  :-)

The wooshing in my ears, the body aches, the neck pain, the surprise fatigue, and the wooshing changing to a high pitched tone - I'm really hoping the endo doc can fix all that.  It can wear me down sometimes.  But visiting Dad helped and hopefully, I can stay upbeat till my appointment in February.

More Thyroid Info for All

I met a lady this weekend who had her thyroid removed.

She told me all of her tests came back within normal range.  But one day she just rubbed her throat and felt a lump.  She very wisely mentioned it to her doctor who ordered an ultrasound.

This was 10 years ago.  And she knew prior to it being taken when it was misbehaving.  If it was over active, she felt like she could peel the paint off the walls of a room with her nails.  If it was under active, all she wanted to do was sleep.

There were days when she'd loose her voice because of the thyroid pushing on her throat and days when she'd feel like her ear was plugged up.  I have the ear plugged up thing sometimes.

Don't give up!  Even if the tests show normal, it's your body.  Talk to your doctor about all your symptoms.

Luckily, my blood work was showing my thyroid all out of wack.  I never mentioned my plugged up ear, or swollen tongue, or achiness to my doctor.  So let your doctor know everything - even if you don't think it's connected.